March 10, 2004, I started blogging. Chris was away for the week attending his grandfather's funeral and I took advantage of TypePad's 30 day trial to check it out.
In the last two years I have posted: 356 posts, and received 735 comments and average about 47 page views per day.
This post is still by far my most popular post I have ever written. It has taken on a life of its own. The Internet is weird place. As yesterday it had 300 comments. who knew?
This is what I wrote on my first post, 03-10-2004 at 06:08 PM
I am. Well maybe. Some of my friends have been bloging; at first I really resented it. I was wrong. I was looking at it in a self-centered way. I realize now that I was becoming too passive in my Internet usage. I was turning into lurker when I used to be a poster. I was becoming increasingly dissatisfied with my forum of choice, TableTalk on Salon.com and its backup The Perfect World. My time there had turned into one big timesuck. I would read and read and not respond, I was doing the same to my friends on the email list, and to my family and old friends on regular email. I was fading away. The only other forum I participate in is Captain Comics Forums at the Captain Comics webpage where I was somehow drafted into being a moderator. I love it there, but it isn’t the place for me to talk about my life as parent or a pastor’s wife. To muse about what I want to do with my life when I grow up or what I doing now, to think back and wax nostalgic about my highschool days (just kidding).
So I have decided to sign up for this blog on trial basis. I am making no commitment to write here forever, but I think I want to write at least once day for 30 days, and see where it takes me.
I think I have been less passive in my Internet usage since then. I hardly ever visit TableTalk anymore and although I am still dissatisfied with aspects of the Perfect World I have become more vocal there. Since I started this blog other friends and Family have started blogging, like Carmen and my mom and others have nearly stopped like Nate Bruinooge. The non-comics forums at Captain Comics have exploded in the last two years, so I do share a lot more of myself there than I did in the past. The one thing this blog has become is a place for me to record my experiences with my children as I learn who they are. I constantly get affirmation from my family for how the blog works to keep them connected to my girls. I do also get admiring reactions from church members who obviously think it takes a lot more talent to blog than it does.
It has been a learning process for me, I am constantly working on what I saw and how to say it. Occasionally I make the wrong judgment call and I have taken a line or even a post down after publishing because it wasn't appropriate or because it was unintentionally hurtful. Because of Chris's position as pastor I am constantly evaluating what I post so I don't give him more work than he already has by having to defend something that I have written. Self-censorship is a discipline, and sometimes no fun, but a necessity.
So I think I am going to stick with it.
thanks for reading and commenting.